Hey Trist my phone service is out so I wont be able to text for awhile. I hope it will be working tomorrow.
nope have not tried it, was going to go tonight but didn't feel like going through all the getting ready to go out stuff. with the shave this and trim that and trying to peace together an outfit and doing hair and doing makeup and and and, bleh. to just sit in some place I don't know by myself feeling all out of place and avoided. just have not been in the right mental state to do anything this week. have just felt like sleeping, sweet sweet unconsciousness lol.
hey I'm hanging in the club rose in Dim anything goes just in case you wanna swing by. I'm here checking it out lol.
school? ahahah haha ha ha. . . . people keep saying that it's crazy. thing is I'd need a loan for it all, and I don't have anything for them to base a loan to me on, never been able to get one. not only that but even if I could get one and go, what would I go for? i'm very stupid and I'm not good at learning at all being I am where I am. pluss even if I knew what to go to school for and I got all the way through it, although my stupid self would never make the grades, but even IF so then there is no for SURE that I would be able to get into a job using that schooling. it's all a risk like a 50/50 but that loan would have to be paid back rathjer it worked out for you in getting a job or not ya know? and I may ed up off of light duty and med leave this friday and if so my job may very well fire me for what ever reason they want. they have been firing people that got hurt and went on med leave as soon as they get released by the doc. they can't fire you while on light duty for med leave cuz if they do it's against the law and they have to pay you alot of money. but when your releases they can do what ever they want. so it's a good chance by monday I wont have a job. with no work to be found any where else that would be very very bad. I'm totally freaked about it. I really am starting to hate this country more and more, I so want out, get me to Japan damn it lol. ok enough of my real world bitching. :p
Yeah pretty sure there is a cover charge, all the clubs in town are like that. and no one buys me drinks lol they wont even talk to me it's just goofy. glad your weekend was good even though work was in the way lol. but a job is a very good thing any more, very hard to come by now days. I really want to get somthing else so I can leave the one I'm working but there is no work to be found any where. all these people with job skills and schooling and training that are flooding the job market after getting laid off of the jobs they have been working the last 10 or more years. no place is going to hire me who has no schooling or extra training and not more then 3 years on any one job over those people. hate to say it but if things keep going like this I may end up either on the street in a freaking box or a whore for old hairy fat nasty men. ugh it's been stressing the hell out of me. hmmm, I totally rambled sorry about that, I wonder how long of a freaking comment you can leave on a page. it just keeps going lol. ok ok any way I'm off, catch ya later Trist!
I didn't go out to the club, much to poor for it last weekend. might try this weekend but thinking will still be to poor for a night out lol. my weekend was ok, had some good food on mothers day and mom seemed happy to have us all together. what about you, how was your weekend?
ahahah I ment to say I dragged myself out not drug, I sound all like some druggy lol any way. hell I've never even smoked pot :p but yeah I hope the last club I'm gonna try works out. and you so totally don't want to be here in kansas trust me lol. but I get what your saying and would be cool to hang out with ya Trist. ^.^ crush? did I see crush some where in there? my my, how tempting. ^.~ maybe I need to reload this game thingy on my laptop and come chill with your toony self huh? well if the goofy laptop will run the darn thing, it didn't much seem to like this game with all the crashing and freezing lol. I'll givbe it a twisty try and see what happens over the weekend. you dating anyone in there now days? hmm hmm are ya are ya huh? lol
hmm sides work? well nothing. . . ahaha. pretty much just stay home after work. single, no friends, so yeah. I have drug myself out last 3 weekends though. to a couple gay/lez clubs out here, I totally don't fit in at them though. just a sore thumb, one is more for gay guys and the other is for gay girls, nothing really for transgender types. mostly I just get looked at oddly and left alone so kinda pointless going out to either of them being I don't belong. I have one more club left to try if it turns out to be the same I guess I'm out of luck. hate going out alone too makes it way harder to relax totally doesn't help being a he trying to be a she ya know? lol and that sums it up on my end.
omg no idea what ya said there. . . thank you, umm I think? lol so hows Trist been, what ya been up to?
TY for the happy easter, hope yours was fun. I don't really do any hollidays but halloween but thank you for thinking of me Trist! *huge hug*
